Can someone just motivate me to go to work?
When I wake up every morning, I feel zero motivation to work. or maybe, a mere 10% motivation from the money. It's still not enough. Oh, maybe the next 10% will be seeing the friendly AIA staffs. That makes 20%. Still not enough to make me feel happy and motivated to work or, go to work with a good mood.
The rest of the missing 80% are due to reasons like colleagues, oh, and it looks like they are the main reason for that. HAHA! How funny. For the past month that I've been working at AIA, I never had lunch with them, I never really joked with them at work, and I don't really talk to them. The barrier between me and them, is like there's an invisible wall between us. Not that I'm sad about this. I'm perfectly fine with it! Because that's the way I handle hypocrites, don't expect the best treatment from me. I don't friggin' care.
I don't expect them (or her) to help me, because she'll prolly help me screw things up. It's not that I'm being arrogant or what fuck. I just had bad experiences with her. Some people really get on my nerves. Seriously. And I have to say that these 2 months at AIA have been the longest months in my work term for FujiXerox.
Welcome to the fuckin' real world again. Things really get so frustrating that I become very tired, even though my job doesn't require alot of physical strength. and seriously, I think I've aged.
After this month, I'll just settle for one or two part time jobs to cover my expenses. Hopefully time will pass soon, August will come, and school will start. That's what I'm looking forward to.(:
On the good side of it, family, friends, and bf have been there for me, to listen to my complaints.
And I'm really missing those days in school. Miss the girls!
nnk, me and Mr China zjh. HAHAHA! x)
Classic!
NYDB GIRLS!